Dear friend Lana,

 

Thanks for both of your emails, i.e. yours and Diane’s! 

 

How true and helpful such thoughts are as are portrayed in a story like Diane’s.  Yet, to me there is a strong impression that there is a danger in too much emphasis upon the event and the things and the person of Yehoshua that is making us stop short of the really valuable lessons in Yehoshua’s death and crucifixion.  I feel there is a tendency towards making the event, the cross, other related things, and the person Yehoshua as crucified, into a relic and to do what the Roman Catholic Church is, or should be, infamous for having most always done with the life and message of Yehoshua, i.e. forgetting and hiding in a deep shroud of mystery that which ought to be revealed, exposed, adequately dealt with, and thus resolved.  I opened up my EGW Study Bible this morning to Deuteronomy 6. In the EGW comments on the bottom of the page are these words: ”This is a righteousness of faith, a righteousness hidden in a mystery of which the worldling knows nothing, and which he cannot understand…”  Some things remain mystery to “the worldling” that do not remain a mystery to the Sons and Daughters of Yahweh.  I fear that too many “Adventists” these days choose “mystery” before revelation and understanding thus each making him/her self a “worldling”.  Let’s apply this thought…  Thinking about those drops of blood dripping upon the shoulders of the sad man.  Blood can be thought of as a vehicle transmitting nutrients and trash into and out of the body.  Blood can be thought of as the word, any word, particularly the Word of Yahweh.  It’s a cleansing agent and an agent of life.  The shoulders, ours, mine and yours, is the place where a yoke is placed. Yehoshua said: “my yoke is light and not heavy”.  A yoke may be thought of as responsibilities in life.  The thing the Creator has given each of us to carry upon our shoulders is our very own head.  We are not to cut our heads of and give it to another to carry, not even to Yehoshua.  Why?  Didn’t He himself ask us to carry the light yoke He Himself has given each of us.  Then if we don’t do that we disobey Him.  We don’t cut our heads of to give to Him, but we may invite Him to be One with each of us just like He is One with His Father and His Father is One with Him and with each of us. Compare John 17.

 

I love the eagle!  I love your quote: “They that wait upon the  Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles. Isaiah 40;31.  Another text that really came home to me within the last couple of weeks in re to the eagles is this one as focused upon in the Sabbath School Bible study guide: “Ye have seen what I did unto the Egyptians, and how I bare you on eagles’ wings, and brought you unto myself” Exodus 19:4.  This in relation to the Eagle and the Phoenix bird as a symbol for the uSA was impressed upon me as one of the powerful tools Yahweh has given each of us for limited use and in responsible ways such as none by Yahweh may be able to help us discern.  As you know the Bible uses expressions such as “every hateful bird” thus implicating the Eagle and Phoenix as a hateful symbol for many evil practices.  Yet, our Creator lovingly created those beautiful birds for what is most certainly a high and valuable purpose, a tool to use wisely and with discernment.

 

Let’s never forget the Second Article within the Covenant between the Creator and each of us.  Anything created, whether man or bird, whether Yehoshua or Phoenix, may be turned into an empty relic and idol and abuse.  Or we may choose to dissect, analyze, learn from, and discern all the values that are hidden within those “mysteries” that no “worldling” will choose to perceive and therefore cannot see.

 

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Well, I’m back from Sabbath School and Church.  Interesting.  My probably greatest adversary and ex-friend was teaching Sabbath School so I chose to attend his class for a change.  As it turns out he is still stuck in some of the same “mysteries” pertaining to Sabbath keeping as he was fifteen years ago.  In some ways he has grown, for instance in becoming so interested in the Hebrew that he even referenced a number of key words relating to today’s study, yet he remains stuck in some of his old geocentric or even egocentric views that keeps, by his own choice, him from seeing higher values in life than his own.  Thus the quote ”This is a righteousness of faith, a righteousness hidden in a mystery of which the worldling knows nothing, and which he cannot understand…” seems applicable to him in his situation.  Why do I care?  Should I care?  I wouldn’t except that because the fruit of his blindness keeps on damaging my family by his continued and unlawful interference in matters within my domain and outside of anything he was ever granted dominion over.  Should I ignore things and just allow things to be as they are?  Should I turn my back to my responsibility and “let god do the job”? Or, is it possible that I’m granted by my Creator the privilege of being sent as His messenger with messages of value?  Is it possible that by knowing my ex-friends blind spots I can share the light of Yahweh and thus contribute to redemption in the here and now for him as well as for me and mine?  Do I allow myself to do as Noah did and look into the eyes of my redeemer and see the mirror image of myself, of my very own name, a name, Noah, a name pertaining to Sabbath rest, like the focus of today’s SS Study lesson, and thus allow my Creator to guide me through the Flood of my life that otherwise threatens in very real ways to drown and eliminate me and mine from the surface of this planet?  Yes, there are many lessons one may draw from Diane’s story.  So why leave it as just a story.  Should I do like most do and allow each to draw their own lessons from whatever they hear? Yes, they need to do that, but NO, if neither I nor anyone ever share the lessons we see and perceive, than how is ever anybody likely to get the idea that there are even any lessons to be drawn, or that it’s permissible, even recommended and commanded by Yahweh, to do so?

 

Many people may perceive my thoughts as too different, unacceptable, even heretical, yet what’s rewarding to perceive is that after giving the ideas a little time to sprout in the minds of those others they obviously grow to become what appears to be their own, and I’m rewarded to reap the fruits of seeds I may have been contributing a little bit in sowing.  Thus the world is changing in small ways that add up to big ways.  I may not be much more than a butterfly clumsily flying from one flower to the next, but as the butterfly, I too, may be granted the opportunity of changing the weather, so to speak, on a planetary scale and even within days at times.  Isn’t this the same as what the most advanced physicists of today’s science call the Butterfly Effect?  Isn’t this the blessings granted entirely by Yahweh, the Creator?!

 

Poor Lana!  Lana says: “…other people have a life.  I on the other hand do not.  Did I tell you that the mirror image Noah saw in the eyes of Yah may also be correctly translated ‘fish bowl’.  A fish trapped in a tiny fish bowl.  Noah trapped on a planet where Noah was given to understand impending disaster on a planetary scale… and nowhere to go.  120 years to do something, yes, but what?  But, yes, the fish bowl is not only the problem, it’s also the solution… Yippy, dippy, doo!!!!!!!!!  “I’ll build me a fish bowl, for me and mine, I’ll call it an “ark”, and we’ll be floated upon the top of the disaster, the Flood, I am, yes I AM, responsible, as taught me by YHWH the Creator.  YHWH is the one who freely granted me the idea, the thought, the mirror image perceived out of His eyes.  That is what ‘grace’ is.  “And Noah looked into the eyes of YHWH and found himself, found his mirror image, found grace”.  Genesis 6:8.  So Lana is in a fish bowl  but Lana is doing what Noah did, is she not?!  Lana is looking into the eyes of her Creator, and she too is seeing the mirror image of her self, or her very own name…  What lessons will she draw?  Who am I to tell?!  Yahweh talks to each of us uniquely.  I may draw one lesson, you’ll draw another.  The well is deep.  There’s plenty of water to draw from.  A flood!  The problem is the SOLUTION!  There’s plenty of time… 120 years.  No doubt.  Why doubt it?  If you think you’ll only live to 70, think again!  If you start eating Q10 daily you’ll probably eliminate both ailments and fatigue as well as adding a good 50% to your life expectancy even if starting very late in life.  And then you have the lessons taught by Dr. John Lee in ‘What your doctor won’t tell you about menopause” to read and discover and you’ll quickly resolve all of your female problems and start rebuilding the strength of your bones while likely even eliminating your RA while also adding additional years to you life… If you keep on learning step-by-little-step and precept upon precept with a focus upon life and truth as taught by Yahweh you’ll add years to your life with no end in sight.  If you doubt it you won’t look, you won’t see, you won’t do, and it won’t happen… It’s all up to you!  As it was to Noah!  Exactly as it was to Noah…

 

No my wife never married another, she is still my wife, though per chance she chooses not to say she is.  At one time she got involved with a double cousin of mine, but when he discovered who she really was… well, she is still my wife, the only other she’s married is the Baal Beast, like so many others… 

 

Hans my oldest is 16.  Presently up in Lapland snowboarding with friends for a week while school is out. He’s at Ekebyholm. First year in gymnasiet. 

 

Jonathan, my second is 14, married to his computer into most of the late nights while forced to go to school during day time.  He’s into 3D design and seems interested in stuff related to what movie producers do for a living.  He’s growing by leaps and bounds in more ways than one.

 

Amita, my beloved daughter is 11.  I see her about three hours a week.  We share and relate. Reed books. Talk. Play.  Enjoy one another.

 

Do I see them?  Not much.  Not by far.  They’ve been kidnapped by a treasonous society impaling themselves upon the mind of my wife.  Is there hope?  Am I in a fish bowl like Noah was?  Is the problem the solution?  Who’s in charge?  Who’s responsible?  Should I turn my back and go to sleep while the Lord of Evil does his thing?  Or has YahWeh granted me a vision giving meaning to my life?  Do I see light in the eyes of Yah?  You bet I do!!!!!!!!

 

You’re welcome about my being open and sharing.  Just don’t distort it in sharing with another.  I don’t enjoy the fruits of distortion. All second hand shared information is by necessity and by nature distortion, and I for one have had too much of that fruit of good and evil and neither want nor need any of the kind.  But you know that and I trust your good heart, you being you, the lovely sweet and thoughtful Lana.  Thanks for being you!

 

I too enjoy your emails.  One of the joys of my life.  I have a little flag popping up in the corner of my ‘puter every time there’s a letter from my sweet friend Lana.  She’s the only one sending emails to that email address so I get very happy every time I see that flag popping up and saying there’s and email for me…

 

I love your style of writing as well as your choice of decorating your emails.  Just wish those decorations would copy over to Word  or that I’d know how to make them do that.

 

Perhaps that’s more than enough for this time….

 

Shabbat shalom and enjoy the fish bowl,

 

 

Gunnar

 

 

 

 

 

From: "Lana" svetnick@yahoo.com

To: <FamiljenSmars@mail.com>
Cc:
Subject: Re: Ms Pest no longer responding
Date: Fri, 14 Feb 2003 16:04:29 -0500 (Eastern Standard Time)

 

They that wait upon the  Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles. Isaiah 40;31

Dear Gunnar,

I think thou thinkest of me to well. :o) but thank  you because I have the need to feel ok with people.

How interesting that you should say that maybe it is not automatic that someone is asking for help just because they share a problem.  I believe that is true.....my sister feels she automatically has to fix other people's problems and shares in a way to communicate she has the answers. 

The main reason I think I thought you were offended is because you had not written for awhile, but then other people have a life.  I on the other hand do not.   One day is the same as another.  My greatest need is to be connected with friends.  I longingly wait for my emails.  Sometimes I feel trapped but then I read your words about if things are not as I want them to be I should do something about it.    Well it is true that it is my choice.  I am not employed and there are many things I should make decisions on, whether to continue to live in Florida, getting a part time job, how to proceed with improving my health, selling my home, etc, etc, etc,.

When one makes God there first and foremost the path is clear and there is peace and joy.  I have not learned to make that on a consistent basis.

No I have not found the fountain of youth :o)......it is just the lighting in which the picture was taken.   I am in fact aging quickly because of my health problems.......Rheumatoid Arthritis, Candida and of course being at the age where menopause is a reality, yuck!   I have many health related books, on herbs, supplements, treatments but still have trouble putting it all together to  treat my problems.  My father used to say that diseases start in the colon.....he had a lot of problems.    Once your body does not function as it should and it starts attacking itself well one has to be very aggressive in restoring it.   This week I have been consistent in going on bike rides.......my exercise regiment.

In regards to my asking about Lennart.....no it is not about us being an item.....I sent him a picture of myself and he was quick to tell me that I would not be interested in him, though I enjoy our correspondence.   We never married people have some of the same issues, I think.

I would like to know what your life is like there in Sweden.....hope I am not to nosy?  You speak of reuniting your family....but you never told me if your wife remarried?  Do you see your children now?  How old are they....they must be close to 20 at least?

Do you keep in touch with Michael....now I am being a pest....maybe you are trying to avoid answering these questions?  :o)

I see in my life that we tend to treat each other as we treat our Lord!

I love getting your mail, thank you for sharing, for being sooooo open it makes it easy for me to tell you anything.

Many Blessings to you on this Sabbath.

Your friend always,

Lana

  

 

-------Original Message-------

 

From: PowerOfChoice

Date: Friday, February 14, 2003 02:37:23 PM

To: Lana

Subject: For Ms. Pest... ;)

 

 

My dearest Lana,

 

You are so very kind and considerate. No, Ms. Pest, you have not offended me, and you are not a pest, so therefore you are no longer Ms. Pest but truly the sweet and lovely Lana I always knew.  Since you asked, I must surely have said something to make you think you had in fact offended me.  I was surprised by your question.  I’ve been thinking about it during the day off and on.  It came to me that possibly it had something to do with my suggestions in re to yours and your sister’s relationship which you mentioned in passing in your last email to me.  I guess I took your bait, swallowed it whole and got hooked into using it as an illustration for something else I was talking about in my email, thinking that per chance my ideas could be applicable towards problem resolutions in re to your situation as stated by you as well.  I guess I took license to giving you such a suggestion based upon a surmising of mine – error on my part, sorry! – but I know better now… stated problems are not necessarily a request for help, or are they?  How do we ever know how to help, when to help, where to help, or whom to help?  Anyways, I didn’t mean to offend you by so doing, so if I did, please forgive me.

 

Perhaps I am mistaken?  Perhaps it’s the general tone and thought content of my letter that gave you that impression?  If that’s so, then please understand that I have been, and continue to be severely offended by many, many people every where around me, by every one near and far, wittingly or unwittingly, known or unknown, good intentioned or bad intentioned, in short, most everyone who ever lived, and who contributed or, more importantly, still contributes in ever so small ways towards the destruction of my family or that of any other.  Do I have reason to feel offended? I’d say yes - whether you agree or not!  Is it possible that it might affect my general affect?  Is it possible that it would not affect my general affect?  Should I ignore the suffering of my sons and my daughter and the self-induced suffering of my wife?  Should I just pretend that everything is fine and dandy and there is nothing that can be done about it while it continues to grow, when there is in fact something, a whole lot, that can be done about it?  Should I just blame it on He’Zeus, Jupiter, and thank the Roman Catholic Church who raised up their most unholy symbol, the cross, where they tortured, maimed, and killed many a martyr besides YeHoShua, namely for the purpose of accomplishing salvation “through the shedding of blood”.  Should I defer problem resolution unto the Second Coming of Christ at some forever untouchable future date?  Or, should I accept the teachings and the life of my pattern, brother, and friend YeHoShua, which He insisted upon even unto the very point of death by torture? Shouldn’t I pick up His teachings, do like He did and does, continually walk with my heavenly Father, and under His direction and guidance give the trumpet a certain sound, such that my friends, and anyone who care to listen, take heed, and join, may participate in our heavenward travel towards problem resolution in the here and now and forever more until all suffering and death is nothing but a memory past?

 

But did you in any way hurt my feelings by any thing you said or wrote to me?  Nope, not in any way.  Just be you as you always were, sweet, lovely, learning, like one true disciple.  That’s how you’ve impressed me, so that’s who you are to me.  If you do share whatever values you might perceive in my words with others then value will grow and ours will be a better world, if only just a little. If you can help others ignore and unlearn anything that will tend towards bad feelings between one and another, then again, ours will be a better world.  I believe I made a statement similar to that before, and maybe that was the thought that made you think what you thought, and if that was it then I think you may not have taken my suggestion to reread my email for purposes previously stated in re to my intention?

 

Anyways, I wish everyone was as sweet and thoughtful as you are in asking the question “Have I offended you somehow?”  How very much easier wouldn’t it then have been to find creative and effective remedies for an effective solution to each and every possible problem.  To each and every REAL problem!

 

Until next time,

 

Your friend,

 

Gunnar

 

 

 

 

 

 

From: "Lana" <svetnick@yahoo.com

To: <FamiljenSmars@mail.com>
Cc:
Subject: Are you still in Sweden?
Date: Sun, 9 Feb 2003 12:54:06 -0500 (Eastern Standard Time)

 

Dear Gunnar,

Not to be a pest but I just wonder if I have offended you somehow.  Please let me know if I have said anything that has hurt your feelings?

If you do not wish or are not able to correspond anymore just let me know PLEASE!

All the best.

Blessings,

Lana